How Happy Tuesday Made Me

Riding on the train on a Wednesday morning, I am happy. Work yesterday felt busy enough to be satisfying, but not too busy as to be stressed. I spent a few trips to Starbucks and lunch with Alex, chatting and laughing. I got a surprise visit from Susan at the end of the day and felt like all was right between us and that I was connected to her again. I got a dinner text from Janet- we’re seeing each other tonight! I came home to find my cats safe and sound and my crappy air conditioner job in one piece. I brought the majority of my things up from the basement, save furniture, making packing and throwing things out easier. I chatted with Alex and Brendan. I plotted for my move out with Jess. And then I cooked up some turkey burgers for Dylan and myself and he came over to watch Wilfred with me. We ended up sitting around, playing with my flute and sorting through my trunk of memories, filling an entire garbage bag. Cathartic. And so necessary. He was helpful! He did it with me for an hour! AND HE BROUGHT ME A HOAGIE. Sometimes, I wonder about us, how long we’ll last or what the world has in store for us, and then we have a night like last night that just makes me not care. I grin and think of how lucky I am to have found someone so amazing. He makes me happy. Everything about yesterday made me happy. I think I was so happy, I had trouble sleeping! It’s time for copious amounts of coffee, and a slow and steady workday. Days like yesterday make me excited about the future…about moving, about going up to Queensbury with Dylan, about the autumn, about Thanksgiving, about CHRISTMAS. It’s all so overwhelming, but amazing at the same time. I keep not wanting to jinx things, but I’ll say it. I finally feel like I have someone I can plan days with. Plan pieces of my life with. He feels so real to me. I think this is being in love. And it’s delightful.

Things I Will Miss When I Move

Jess
Duke
Fruit
Maybe Nyx...
Having my own basement
Having a nice big bedroom
The big kitchen!
Two bathrooms
Someone to share the chores with
The bubble!
Watching cable TV on a nice television
Our big dining room table
The comfy brown couch
The baker's rack
The built in shelves in the mudroom
The mudroom in general
Having enough space for all my miscellaneous crap
The laid back nature of our crazy landlord
Dissecting the thoughts of our pets
Playing fashion show late at night before a trip
The way there is always mail on some flat surface in the house
Buddha!
The chess pieces
Having a deck!
Having two doors!!!
Our little yard
OUR PARKING LOT. That messy, cramped, dumb parking lot.
The guest room!
The walk to the R5 every morning.
Seeing shows I wouldn't normally watch, like Real Housewives!
Taking trips with Jess to the Store...or Queensbury!
All of our outlets...
The light!
The quick walk to Yang Ming, Wawa, 7/11, the Bagel Factory, Ho Choi, Pacillio's, Pizzarella Grille and Rita's...
Running in Bryn Mawr...the Villanova stretch, the downtown loop, the Havertown stretch, the downtown zigzag...
Taking Duke for walks in Bryn Mawr
Going to the Harford Dog Park w/ Jess and Duke
The funny things Jess hangs on the front door
Decorating for Christmas
Our sweet curtains
The short drive to Dylan's house
The short walk to downtown Bryn Mawr...to Milkboy, the Grog, The Bryn Mawr Film Institute, Gullifty's, Borders, The Brgr Joint, Omar's Hookah Bar...
The pretty colored houses across the street.


I moved here at the very end of March 2009. By the time I leave, I will have lived here 28 months. That's longer than I've lived anywhere other than my parents house. No wonder it's so nerve-wracking to leave.

In a way, I feel like it was a good introduction to being out on my own. I wasn't really on my own. I had Jess. She's taught me a lot and I've grown up a lot since I came here over 2 years ago. I can't believe we're in our third summer in Bryn Mawr. I guess it's definitely time to move on.

I've been so nervous lately about where I'm going to end up. What I need to do is relax, and trust in the world to deliver the right choice to me. I'll keep looking at places, and doing my best to stay on the hunt. I'll make arrangements to keep the internet going until I move out. I'll rent a truck and convince my parents and Josh and Kristi to come help me move. Dylan will help too. I have nothing to be nervous about. Wherever I decide to move, I'll bring a tape measure and make sure my bed will fit :) We'll make it work. Even Alex today told me if I needed to crash on her couch, I could. God bless her heart, I'm banking it doesn't come to that. But it does make me think...

I truly have a great support system. I love the people I work with, the friends I've made here, my great friends from home, and I will always have Jess as a friend! And I'm at an exciting point in my life with a brand new relationship, and the prospect of moving forward in my career. Life is truly going well.

This is a challenge, like many others I've faced in life. And like the others I've faced, I'll come out alright in the end. It's just a crazy feeling to think that two months from now (a month and a half!) I'll be living on my own somewhere brand new. But I hope wherever that is, in whatever house or apartment I've chosen, I'll find as many things to love about it as I have here at 923 County Line Road.